I really did feel a sense of utter hopelessness and unworthiness. But then unbidden, uninvited but marvellously welcome came this vision. I saw a throne room with an almighty hush resting over it. I couldn't even see the One sitting on the throne because it was simply too great, too high, too vast. All I knew was that all eyes were on me. And I saw a hand holding the most wonderful, beautiful scepter and it lifted slightly towards me. There was a rush of sound, an gasping in across the gathered heavenly masses and the Scripture from Esther 5:2 came to me;
"When the king saw Esther the queen standing in the court, she obtained favor in his sight; and the king extended to Esther the golden scepter which was in his hand. So Esther came near and touched the top of the scepter".